Bleeding Scars

I have learned over time to embrace my solace

I have become pretty good with goodbyes

I, now know not to expect but to hope

I, long for a Hi but instead I choose Goodbye

I am alone not because it’s easier but because it’s safer

I choose security over tragedy

‘Coz I, can’t take another misery

I, had just enough of pain to last me a lifetime, honey…

And all the nights of loneliness had taught me what it feels like to just…be…

These wounds, these scars…

They’re not yours they’re mine

It’s healed now, bandages opened

But just the sight of them send me chills

Like the gut wrenching feels in my stomach and I, I fall on my knees

So, say… Would you help me look away?

Maybe, maybe then we’ll find a way…

I’m sorry, sorry…

Hey I didn’t tell you

I built my walls high enough

The bricks are harsh, rough

To not let anyone in

I got my soul locked in

I gave in, I said…don’t, don’t come in

I had bricks thrown at me

So I used them to create a fort

Another breakdown I just can’t afford

To her, vulnerability is….insanity

One she would not fancy

This has sadly, become her identity

Like gravity, it consumes her profoundly…

So when you come in finally

She asked, do you want to leave?

‘Coz she’s about done with grief

She was ready for the end even before it began

Perhaps she just doesn’t know how to begin, again…

‘Coz, ‘coz a silent voice in her says…

Forget safety, take it easy…

So baby, find me… Now I am free

I’m sorry baby… But let’s, let’s try…

Maybe, just maybe…we’ll fly…high….